So come 2019, back at work and fresh start for me. Alhamdulillah, I could walk now. I slowly start to sneak in my running back into my routine. It took me two months to actually start to put the courage and brave myself to start running. It’s kinda scary to run knowing you used to have broken bones. So I did not push myself too hard on running but I miss running! I gained weights during my medical leaves because I could not run or exercise. I could only sit, sleep, eat, walk to the toilet (with crutches) and repeat.
In March I started running again until now (working my way up to try Half Marathon soon. Just for my self achievement not for competition purpose) . I was actually planning to start HM this year, but since I broke my foot in October 2018, I need to start train again from scratch and maybe aim for next year. I knew I could, but I would not push myself too hard on that.
Having this hobby of running and getting myself back in shape is actually part of our TTC Journey. My ‘condition’ could easily make me gain weight, water retention, hormonal belly and I could have diabetes too! (Fanauzubillahiminzalik..) Having these worry, we thought that you know what, it’s our 6th years anniversary this year.. lets try to get little Rash.er in the bun. (Inn Shaa Allah..) So I spoke to a good friend of mine back in Japan, he told me that he and his wife was trying for six years too when they decided to do something. They were both healthy like us, but maybe my hormone has started to acted up from the food I consume ( I am very weak when it comes to food) . So I started to take supplements, home workout and having running schedule for at least once a month.
Having that, we both also decided to take my friend’s advice to seek for medical help. So recently we decided to meet doctor HA in KL. It was a really nervous experience for me because I don’t know, sometimes I have the thoughts that ‘What if I’m broken?’, ‘Do I have cancer?’, ‘Will I ever have the chance to conceive?’. Those kind of thoughts really make me wanna poop! haha
But Alhamdulillah, after the meeting with the doctor HA, I kinda feel like a little weight has lifted off my shoulder. The meeting was smooth sailing, I explained my condition, and the doctor has checked the documents we brought and all. We did a little check up and he just went, “So ok, we will wait for you ‘moon’, and we will need you to take ‘these’ and we will see you in two weeks time”. I’m like Really? I felt calm but at the same time I hope whatever the plan is, it will pull us through this time. Inn Shaa Allah. I hope it’s as simple as the cat sleeping up there. He said that we are both fine. We are just like other couples who are still trying and we are just unlucky yet. Belum rezeki..
But the doctor has many success stories under his treatment, so when we decided to meet him I have this strong hunch,’This is it. Lets try our best’.At least we tried, ikhtiar and tawakkal. The doctor advised for us to try IUI (Intrauterine insemination). So here’s our journey begins.. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..